Tuesday, May 1, 2007
11:26 a.m.
One night, one more time...Thanks for the memories
Even though they weren't so great...
Sunday, April 29, 2007
03:42 a.m.
Well as you can see I'm in the middle of doing up my blog...A whole new thing altogether...But while on it I suddenly get bored and lazy...It'll be done eventually...Just that I don't know when...
Hmm until then...Thanks for dropping by
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
02:15 p.m.
Yesterday was nice...Went to Vivo with insert name here to search for jobs...Cumshot said River Island is definitely hiring...My ass! The salesgirl said they're not anymore...Got a lead from Topshop though...But doubt I wanna pursue it...Well at least I got Ben n Jerrys ice cream for free cos yesterday was Ben n Jerrys free ice cream day...
Been seeing her more frequently these days...And I must its really nice...Looking from a non-bf view...I'm really amazed how at ease we are with each other...She can tell me the most awkward thing and it didnt seem any uncomfortable for us...I guess we still have this attachment btwn us...But things are much simpler this way...And I'm glad...This is just what she always wanted...I'm just happy that she is still very much part of my life...
It's not about throwing everything away...It's about embracing things as it is and I'm finally at ease with myself...Thanks for reading
Friday, April 13, 2007
12:04 p.m.
Dbl O was full of mats and minahs...And where there's mat reps of course a scuffle will just be a shove away...Some mat act terror and punched this chinese guy...Seriously that Chinese dude so kental and harmless I don't understand why he would wanna hit him anyway...Ooh well biasa jugak...Mat reps nak act terror (translation: Ooh its only normal...Mat reps to act tough)
But it was definitely fun...Black was ermmmm high and crazy...Hahaha should look at his antics...Pricless! As usual I left my dick at Zouk's locker...Have yet to take it back...(Just means that I have no balls to hook up with girls) But girls or no girls...It was a splendid time...Though I burnt 20 bucks because they were so particular about punctuality...
Ooh well that's all that I've got...suddenly got writers' block...Wahahaha
Come bring me down...Bury me, bury me...I'm finished with you
Sunday, March 25, 2007
10:25 a.m.
Happy Break-up Song
Hmmm...Everybody has their own break-up song...You know the song that you play one million times over and over again which pisses your sister or your dog off real badly...Whether it's a crooning, heart-wrenching ballad or a psyched up I'm gonna fucking kill you angsty loud trash...It's the song that sets you in the mood...The song that makes you reminisce the good times...Or makes you want to trash your living room, thinking about the shitty things he/she did to you...
For me personally, I go for songs which tells my story or my feelings rather...And no other song comes close to telling it than My Chemical Romance's "I don't love you" The line which goes "When you go do you have the guts to say...I don't love you like I loved you yesterday"...It made me go woooaaah...That's sooo what I'm feeling right now...
Don't need to go to explanations why I feel like that...Cos this entry is not about my break-up rather it's about the break-up song...So what's the theme song to your break-up people? I wish I can get some involvement but looking at my tagboard...Don't think there'll ever gonna be...Ooh well...To the fifteen of you who dutifully been coming in here to check out my trash (I doubt there's even fifteen) Please contribute...Tag me on my board...Tell me what's your break-up song?
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
11:43 a.m.
Well...like Nelly Furtado sang..."Why do all good things come to an end"...I find myself asking the same qn...It's finally over...I've fought the hardest battle and I lost...Hmm reminds me of the movie three hundred...
For almost ten magical months...She's been a part of my life...Funny that she came into my life when I had a knee surgery and that things ended on today, the day I'm having another surgery...But what's it gotta do with anything anyway...That was just a random piece of trash...
My only regret...It ended sourly...I know my words hurt her deeply...And I truly apologise for that...But if you ask do I want to take it back if given a chance...I'd say no...I've been foolish...The signs were there...But I kept believing...Even after all this...I still do believe that she'll realise in the end and change...
There's just one lie that I told her throughout our relationship...But I guess she'll never know...If you're reading this Ms. Lang...Thanks for all the memories...
Monday, March 19, 2007
08:28 a.m.
Watching people pass by around me, I start to ponder...Everyone looked so caught up in the busy flow...Some with intensity in their eyes, walking in fast rapid steps, some with eyes sparkling, strolling leisurely along while others expressionless, walking as if they're just going where the waves take them...
But what are they thinking, how are they feeling? Beneath the many faces that I can see, surely there's something inside them that I can't...They might be feeling joy, anxiety, hurt, angst, any other feelings you can think of...And in their minds, they can be thinking about what they did last night, the jokes they heard, the heartache they felt, the stupid things they did...Our mind it's pretty random...
Still everyone looked so caught up in the moment...It's as if everything else is taking a back seat...Maybe it's time for me to do the same...I can feel the gentle breeze in my hair...I close my eyes and take a deep breath...And I've decided that I should just go with the flow just like the crowd amongst me...For this is life after all...And every minute of everyday you make decisions
It can be a very big decision like taking up that job offer or getting married...Or it can be small mindless ones like what you want to eat and where you want to go...But still they're choices to be made...It's the same for you, my love...Decisions...who says that they're always easy...But still you have to make a choice...And I'll be patiently waiting for you...I love you
Saturday, March 17, 2007
11:18 p.m.
Yesterday was a really fun day albeit short...But I guess we kinda made full use of that little time that we have...As usual...We have our dosage of Japanese cuisine...Hmmm not really Japanese I guess...It's more of a fusion...But anyway, Ramen ten was great...The food was excellent...And pricey...All in all still worth it though...Great food, great company, great fun...Priceless
Tuesday, the 3rd surgery done on my left knee...Hopefully the last...Damn the meniscus, I guess it retore though from the MRI, it was hard to determine the problem...Ooh well pray for me guys, that everythings going to be just fine...And Saturday, is the big day for her and also for the climbers...All the best to each and everyone of you...Gambatte yo!
Thursday, March 15, 2007
09:56 a.m.
Everything falls in slow motion, Seconds turn to minutes, minutes to hours, hours to days.
Yes, this is what I think it is...This is the beautiful letdown.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
12:34 p.m.
I got quite a fair bit to share in here...But now that I'm actually typing this out...Suddenly all of the thoughts just disappear...
The long weekend feels like a breeze and tomorrow it's back to hell...Life is...I don't know...So many things happened...And I'm changing...I know it isn't obvious...I'm trying hard to curb it...But it's growing...I start thinking of stuff I would forbid myself to back then...It's just crazy...And there's things going on right now which aren't exactly helping the situation...I thought I had it all...Now it doesn't seem so...
It's disintegrating...I'm still normal...But the feeling...It's like I'm just waiting for the end...Yeah I had thoughts of ending it all...Because I realise that the future isn't so bright as I thought it would be...My heartfelt thanks to all of you who has contributed in ruining my life bit my bit...You're that close to ruining it all...
Monday, February 12, 2007
09:21 p.m.
Forever Love, Forever Dream
Stay by me, just like this
Holding my heart that shakes in the dawn
Ah, will you stay with me
As long as the wind blows?
I don't want anyone else by my side
Forever Love, Forever Dream
I can't walk any further
Oh, tell my why Oh, tell me true
Teach me the meaning of life
Forever Love, Forever Dream
Within the flowing tears
Until the shining seasons change into eternity
Forever Love
Beautiful lyrics, Beautiful music, Beautiful song...What more can I say
Monday, January 29, 2007
08:33 a.m.
Hmmm 8 mths...That's a pretty long time for me...There's so much that happened in these 8 mths that it could last me a decade...Sky highs and rock bottom lows...It's been one hell of a roller coaster...But I'm glad that everything's settled...We are moving on...Where to exactly? I don't know...Let the tides take me...
Anyway...I already feel like a grown up...I think differently now...I'm thinking more ermmm...responsibly...Shit I hate this...It's not fun at all...It's too serious...You start worrying more...You start planning ahead...You start feeling old...Well at least I still have that stubborness of a schoolboy...And teenage angst never really left me...It's just pent up inside...Haha
So where do I go from here? Where do we go from here? I want to live free...I want to live happy...I want...I don't know what I really want now...
Tuesday, January 2, 2007
07:37 p.m.
Life is full of crossroads...Remember our earliest crossroad? The transition from primary school to secondary...Then it was yet another phase for us from secondary school to tertiary education...
I can recall how carefree those times were...Though all these choices could affect my future somehow...I was actually living for the moment...Taking things as they come...Going with the flow...But its not the same now...Another 4mths and I'll be at another crossroad...And this time it wouldn't be easy...What shall become of me? What do I do now? I'm clueless...For the first time I feel like I have no control over my life...It's not fun, fun, fun anymore...It's responsibilities, responsibilities, responsibilities
It's been fun growing up...But now is the time to be a grown up and it sucks! I feel like I'm not ready for this...It's just not me...
Maad...Let's start being responsible...Now is the time to start...Sighs...
Saturday, December 23, 2006
01:00 p.m.
How did things come to this? It's really complicated now...I lost my will already...I'm almost at the edge of giving up...How can we still be together after all this? Things have just become more and more complicated...
How do I still be strong for us? I really want to but circumstances are really hurting us...I hope time will change everything...But how much time that is going to take...I don't know...
Do I still believe in us? Yes...But I just don't know if we can be truly happy together...There's a romantic notion to "Us against the world" but isit even realistic...I don't know...
No matter...Let's just wait for time to heal everything...Hopefully everything...And then we can start all over again...
I hope you get to read this...And if you do...Please leave me a comment or two...At least I know you're here...It sucks that we can't even keep in touch anymore...But just remember that I'm always here and I'll always love you
Friday, December 22, 2006
11:16 p.m.
Baby...Every night I'll be there without fail...You may not know what I mean...But I was there tonight...And I'll always be every night...Until I know things are fine once again...Until I know that you've no more worries...I hope you get to read this...Don't worry about a thing darling...Just be strong, believe...That one day we will be truly happy
Times are tough now for us...But patience my darling...Seek His Guidance...Seek His Strength...For Allah is Most Gracious, Most Merciful...Most Strongest...He will lead you the way...Believe in Him...Keep the faith...
Trust me...All these hardship will be worth it...I promise you...I love you
Sunday, December 17, 2006
12:56 p.m.
Remember the clear skies, the warm summer breeze sweeping through our hair? Remember strolling along the beach, holding hands? Remember the beautiful scenery of the trees, of the sea, of everything? Remember sitting by the shoreline, waves crashing at us, sand in our pants, talking about science, the world and the unknown?
Remember the night on the rooftop, the star gazing, the moonlight? Remember the lullabyes as we slept in warm embrace in the cold airy night?
Remember the time we sat in the bus interchange for almost 2 hours, just chatting about anything and everything right in the middle of the passing crowd?
Remember Changing Appetite? Remember Pizza Hut? Remember Swensens? Remember Tekka? Remember Ernie? Remember the poster? Remember the jigsaw puzzle? Remember the month-sary gifts?
Remember shopping in Bugis Street, F.O.S, Roxy, Flash & Splash, Song & Song, Geylang? Remember our first movie, Haunted Apartments? Remember 2nd Apr? Remember 28th May? 24th Jun? 28th July?
I just can't list all the other things that we did together...They're countless...But I swear every single one of them...They really meant alot to me...The special moments spent with a special someone...But little did I know...While we were building beautiful memories...You were already shattering them...
Where did it all go wrong?
Friday, December 15, 2006
03:46 p.m.
Where did it all go wrong? To only find out it went wrong so early into our relationship...That hurts most...I thought I gave you everything...Everything that you will ever need...I guess I was wrong...But the truth is much harder to swallow than lies...
The truth is...I was never the one you wanted...But you assured me the world...That you belong to me and only me...Little did I know...I suspected it...But I chose not to believe because...All in all I believed in you...I believed in us...
I may have said hurtful things...Scarring you deeply...That is my flaw...My temper, my rage, my angst...They are my downfall...But I swear to you I never meant to harm...I never meant to hurt...I was only looking out for you...I rather tell you the truth...Be honest with you...Rather than gave you packs of lies and candy coat my words...I know it's harsh most times...But I rather let it out...Than being dishonest...Because I just couldn't lie to you...I could lie to anybody even to myself...But I can never lie to you...Because I know you really trusted me...Just as much as I trusted you
But you rather be dishonest and much worst...you rather be unfaithful...If only I knew what was going through you...But you chose not to tell...You chose to be unfaithful...I feel myself shattered, battered and left to die...My trust crumbled, my beliefs withered...How could you lead me on...I placed all my dreams around you...Built it around you...My future shaped around you...
But now it is all gone...I love you so much...Really I thought I've given you everything...But I didn't...I'm sorry...But if only you were honest to me...I would have done anything and everything so as to make things better for us...
You said that you do believe in us...You said you love me and only me...You said I'm your everything...You said I complete you...But if you meant everything that you said...If you were really sincere about it...Then why do you still need him? Where's the truth? Where's the lies?
But no matter what you did to me...I still believe in us...Nothing has changed...Not a single bit...I still love you just the same...I still need you the same...And ultimately I still believe in us...What about you?
P.S I love you, darling
Sunday, December 3, 2006
05:24 p.m.
The bestest week...Honeymoon at East Coast...Holding hands...Strolling along the shoreline...Played in the water...Talked about Physics, the waves, the moon, Neil Armstrong and the conspiracy theory of how man has never been to the moon, the Bermuda Triangle, the aliens, the UFOs, the Loch Ness and everything else in between...Wrote you something...It moved you to tears...Took beautiful pictures...Of sceneries...Of us...The moments...Priceless
Saturday, November 4, 2006
11:12 p.m.
First entry since I think a whole month...Well nobody ever reads anyway...But ooh well...I'm only here to complain...
Being nice is a thankless job...Nice guys finish last...Period
Monday, September 25, 2006
10:22 a.m.
Ramadhan adalah bulan umat Muhammad s.a.w.
Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda,
"Apabila tiba bulan Ramadhan maka akan dibukakan pintu-pintu syurga dan ditutupkan pintu-pintu neraka lalu diikatkan semua syaitan.."
Sabda baginda dalam hadis yang lain, "Jika umat manusia itu mengetahui akan kelebihan yang ada di dalam bulan Ramadhan nescaya umatku akan menginginkan supaya dijadikan sepanjang tahun itu sebagai bulan
Ramadhan."
(i) Setiap amalan kebajikan akan digandakan oleh Allah sebanyak 1000 kali ganda.
(ii) Setiap amalan sunat akan diberikan ganjaran pahala amalan fardu.
(iii) Ramadhan dibagikan kepada tiga bahagikan kepada tiga bahagian istimewa bagi mereka yang berpuasa iaitu bahagian pertamanya dipenuhi dengan rahmat Allah, bahagian kedua dipenuhi dengan keampunan dari Allah dan bahagian ketiga pembebasan dari siksa api neraka.
(iv) Dituntut supaya mengerjakan solat sunat tarawih, witir dan solat-solat sunat yang lain.
(v) Banyakkan berdoa, berzikir, selawat, membaca al Quran, bertaubat dan lain-lain amalan sunat.
(vi) Banyakkan bersedekah kepada fakir miskin dan membantu mereka yang berada di dalam kesusahan dan yang ditimpa kemalangan.
(vii) Menggandakan amalan sunat terutamanya pada 10 hari terakhir Ramadhan bagi mengharapkan keberkatan dan kebesaran malam ‘Lailatul Qadar’ seperti beriktikaf di masjid dan sebagainya.
(viii) Menghidupkan malam-malam Ramadhan dengan mendirikan qiamullail terutama pada 10 hari yang terakhir.
Wallahu A'alam.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
06:01 p.m.
In the Name of Allah, Most Beneficent, Most Merciful.
O you who believe! The fasting is prescribed for you as it was prescribed for those who lived before you, so that you become pious.
Al-Baqarah, verse: 183
Sunday, September 3, 2006
04:47 p.m.
I've been putting up well this weekend...But still when my mind goes astray...I have visions of you, visions of us...These are pictures of happiness and bliss...Then I realise just how much you mean to me...
They say you wouldn't know how much something means to you until it is gone...I guess it is true...Never in my life I've felt lonelier...Feeling this emptiness that exists without your presence...Now than ever...I want to treasure you even more...You're the difference between a happy day and a dull, lonely one...Yes I may have lots of fun with my friends...They are always a jolly good bunch...But no one comes even close to fitting into your shoes with the elations you've been bestowing me...
The cool toy you mailed me, the chocolates and candies you bought for me once in awhile, the poem you've written me, the care and concern you've showered me, the love you blessed me, the dreams we shared, the dates we've been on, the times we've spent, the phone calls every nite without fail, the naughty things we did *shhh don't tell* d;D...Hell these thoughts just make me miss you so very much...And sadness fills this heart of mine...
I hope you're doing well and having fun...I can't wait for tomorrow...Cos tomorrow you're finally coming home...I love you!
Monday, August 28, 2006
01:44 a.m.
Whoa! A quarter of a year already...That's pretty fast...And still getting better and better...Here's to three blissful months with you!
O' Allah please let everything be okay...I pray that nothing goes wrong for us...
Thursday, August 17, 2006
12:25 p.m.
Well people say the past can never be erased...What matters is how u pick urself up and move forward...I know everyone makes mistakes...Big or small...They are in the end just mistakes...Yes I am very disappointed...But I choose not to be affected...
Every now and then these thoughts do caught up with me...I always shrug them off...Believing in the greater good...But I just hope that they will stop...Because I'm afraid I'm not strong enough...And it doesn't help when regret is just a confession not a conviction...
Very truly I'm pretty hurt by what I've read in there...But I don't want to spoil today...We're going to Marina Square...Me and my baby...I just hope I can restrain myself and avoid spoiling the day...We are so looking forward to this...Dear Allah please give me the strength to endure this for abit
Sunday, August 6, 2006
10:34 p.m.
Feelings...In the end...It's nothing more than just feelings...You can be best of friends today...But the next moment you're enemies...You can be a loving couple today...But tomorrow you're bitter foes...
Maybe I should start learning this lesson...Nothing last forever...Especially feelings...Sometimes it happens...Feelings die...Whole years are lost in a blink of an eye...
And when that day comes...Should I wallow in self-pity and join the Girl Shmirl Foundation...Or should I smile because at least we had fun while it lasted...Or maybe I should make public enemy out of whoever that person is...
I wonder why it's hard for some to let go...And really easy for others...Ooh well I don't know why but I guess I'm anticipating another heartache...And when that day comes...I shall say "Well thanks for the ride...You've been a really good company" and go back to my old wandering way
Thursday, July 27, 2006
01:15 p.m.
Tmr marks 2 blissful months with you...Here's to the nxt billion months to come...I love you...d=)
Happy second month-sary, Lana!
Saturday, July 15, 2006
11:19 a.m.
This piece of lyrics below is dedicated to all my friends, family and fans...And to you too, Nora...I love you all..
Rooftops - Lost Prophets
When our time is up,
When our lives are done,
Will we say we've had our fun?
Will we make a mark,
This time?
Will we always say we tried?
All the love I've met,
I have no regrets,
If it all ends now,
I'm set.
Standing on the rooftop,
Waiting till the bomb drops,
This is all we've got now,
Scream until your heart stops
Never gonna regret,
Watching every sunset,
Listen to your heartbeat,
All the love that we've felt.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
This is all we've got now,
Everybody scream your heart out.
Just wanna let you all know that if my life has to end now...I'm leaving here contented...Feeling blessed to have once crossed path with all of you...Thank you
Thursday, July 13, 2006
12:01 a.m.
Early day tomorrow...Gonna hang out in camp with Ah Pau and Mat Tetek...Come to think of it...It's been a long while since I've last been there...To be exact...Since 17th May 2006...Yeap that's how long it is...
And well for your information my MC is extended until 30th Sept 2006...Life is good and fair right now...Must be the good karma I've chalked up for being such a good boy in the past...Haha
Anyway...I can't wait to go to Sentosa again...Everybody, let's go to Sentosa real soon ok...I want to show off the stuff I got from the Quiksilver shopping spree...The sale was fantastic...Never I thought Quik stuff could be so cheap...I got a Quik boardshorts for only $29.50...Now, is that cheap or is it really cheap...On top of that, I got 2 Quik tees...1 Quik shirt and a pair of Quik slippers...Ooh and I also bought an Adidas Originals tee...Hmmm let me try and recall what else I bought...Well can't remember...
But whooaaaaa...That's really huge shopping for a month...Bttr stop this impulsive urge...Or I won't have enough for the rest of the month...Anyway, from nxt month onwards...I'm planning to save $200 per month...This is money saved for the ultimate ORD party...A trip to Gold Coast, Australia with my dudes...Maybe I will become a surf dude and come back home with this strange Aussie accent...Or maybe I'll come back home with huge shopping bags...Or maybe I'll just come home with lots of memories that's etched deep inside forever...Priceless!
Monday, July 10, 2006
10:29 p.m.
Hey...somebody said I'm so emo...I'm angry now...Raaawr! You shaddap Nunu...You're emo yourself ok...! Hahaha anyway whatever that made me go sleepless that night is now gone...
I'm so proud of us...So many obstacles...So many tests...But I'm really glad that we pulled through and championed over them all...I guess open communication really works...And not forgetting about patience, honesty and trust...Darn I'm starting to sound like Aunt Aggie like that...
Anyway this week could be the last week of MC for me...Unless I get an extension...Noooo I'm not ready to go back to work...Not yet...Please give me an extension, doc...At least until the end of August...I think I deserve this long break...I'm really working hard to get back to full strength and fitness...So give me more time...Going back to work will be pretty much a hindrance for me...
Ooh my birtday is coming up later this month...I dunno how many more days to go...I got my baby to do the countdown for me...So yeah Happy 21 years on Earth for me in advance...Yeaay! Ooh by the way dear, I'm still wondering what's all that surprise gift that you're making for me...Ooh can't wait! Can't wait!
Ok bye!
Sunday, July 9, 2006
04:53 a.m.
I'm sorry...I can't sleep...My heart is sinking...Seems like it's in a bottomless pit...All the things I read still feeding on my emotions...It's like a parasite that I can't remove...I'm sorry...I guess all I need now are answers...And assurance...Please if there's one thing I could ask from you...It's your honesty...
Maybe I'm just jumping to conclusions...With baseless assumptions...But what is unclear is what that scares me the most...Please come clean...I beg you...
I love you
Wednesday, July 5, 2006
04:47 p.m.
I get bored easily...Period!
Saturday, July 1, 2006
10:45 a.m.
Since I cant copy the questions from your blog...Im posting another set of questions...Hahaha
1. Never in my life i:
- had sex
2. The last person i kissed was:
- Jess Alba? Or isit Kristin Kreuk? Or maybe its Nora?
3. The one person who can drive me nuts, but
then can always manage to make me smile is:
- Hmmmm...I dunno...but I do noe of sumbody who always make me go wild n put a smile on my face! *wink wink*
4. The high school I go to is:
- San Dimas High School...No its Ngee Ann Secondary School
5. When i'm nervous i:
- have a nervous expression etched on my face
6. The last time I cried was:
- last month?
7. My hair:
- has this out-of-bed-look because I just got up from bed
8. When I was 5, I:
- was a mischievious and naughty boy
9. My Christmas last year:
- i went out with my friends?
10. When I turn my head right, I see:
- the windows shut
11. I should be:
- talkin to Nora but she had to bathe and settle down
12. When I Look Down I See:
- my legs, sum stacks of books and notes, my cousins PT shoes and the parquet floor
13. The craziest recent event was:
- Argentina losing to Germany last nite
14. By this time next year:
- I would be done with NS, maybe travelling around the world, or maybe settled down, married with a kid
15. I love:
- Friends, fam and fans...Ooh and Nora of course!
16. I have a hard time understanding:
- ladies fashion
17. I feel like:
- cuddlin and snugglin with Nora on her comfy bed...
18. You know I like you if:
- I cant look you in the eye and stutter to talk to you...I get fidgety and shakin when I see you...
19. Take my advice:
- Advices are worthless...So dont listen to advices...If advices are so good they wouldn't be free
20. My ideal breakfast is:
- A buffet spread of breads, sausages, omelette and banana milk
21. If you date me out:
- I can be really quiet...Not because I hate you or dun enjoy the date...But Im lost for words and jus soakin in da moment with you...Or I can be really crazy and hyper because Im really comfy being around you...
22. Soon I plan to:
- play video games with my cousin when he wakes up
23. If you spend the night at my house:
- expect nothing but fun, fun, fun...
24. The world could do without:
- poverty
25. The most recent thing I bought myself is:
- a Quik polo tee
26. My favorite brunette(s) is(are):
- jess alba...and Nora...hahaha
27. The animals I would like to see flying
besides birds?
- how about......the elephant? freeeaky!
28. Last night I:
- was in Bugis hanging out with my friends and cousin, sheesha-ing and watching football
29. My birthday is on:
- jul 28th
30. Tomorrow I am:
- going out with Nora...I hope nothing spoils the plan tmr
Monday, June 26, 2006
09:32 p.m.
A free-spirited wanderer is what I want to be...Bounded by no responsibilities, no commitments to anyone but only himself and God...
As such the passport is just a booklet to cross the land and seas...But seriously I would rather consider myself a citizen of the world...The whole world is my home...
I hope to gather a group of friends who shares a friendship, a tried and tested bond that is unbreakable, withstanding the test of time and circumstances...It is with these friends that I will go on my lifelong dream, the very thing that I want to do before I die...and that is to travel the world over...Visit every corner of every streets, every nook and cranny, every land, every sea, every continent and every country...We have nothing to hold us back...Nothing to lose...We have nothing to depend on and hold onto except for ourselves and the bond shared between us...
When you have an awesome group of friends whom you know you wouldn't mind growing old together with...Who needs girls anyway? Love and emotions are just hindrance to what we really want to achieve in life...And that is to be the citizens of the world...
But about the part above...Maybe I just spoke too soon...Love you, baby!
Saturday, June 24, 2006
11:29 p.m.
Sometimes time just takes too long...And the word 'time' is really vague...How can you be so sure but feel really uncertain at the same time? Why this mixed feelings? Someone told me before...That I think too much...Do I? Hmmm maybe I just do...
Ooh well, moving on...I've really enjoyed myself this week...Plenty of reasons why...But yeah sorry I don't feel like rambling all about them...Just one sentence can say it all...Those moments = priceless
Guess I'm done updating...ok bye!
Monday, June 19, 2006
12:58 a.m.
Time has been flying so fast...World Cup has been around since like 10 days ago but it didn't feel like it...One more month before I might have to go back to work if I don't get an extend on my MC...Oooh I'm so lazy to go back to work...I would rather stay at home and spend time with Lynna Lang...
Ooh talking about her...This week will be the one of the bestest week ever...Tomorrow will be our first real date ever...Hahaha strange that we've been courting and meeting ever so often but never been out on a date...Yeah really can't wait for it...It will definitely be a blast...
Yeah then on Wednesday...I might be off to Sentosa with her...Oooh see her in bikini...Weee! She is just so hot and sexy la...Very leggy and curvy...Woooo! Hahaha but that's besides the point...Hmmm well actually that is another point...But yeah just spending time with her is priceless...Oooh and then on Saturday...It's her birthday...So many things to look forward to this week...I can't wait! Ok bye
Monday, June 12, 2006
01:06 p.m.
Man..this is soooooooooooo boring...
Friday, June 9, 2006
11:43 a.m.
Tick tock...tick tock...tick tock...Well today the government will be back...Well I kinda miss them all...But yeah liberty sure has its fun...I got to see that girl...Dunno that one la d=D...Almost every single day...Just sucks that she can't come today...Ooh but I really did enjoy every single minute of time spent with her...
Anyway I think everything will start to be a bore now...She can't come like every single day now...And on top of that I finally caught up with Bleach...Which means I have to wait for a new episode every single week...Ooh oh but how can I forget...World Cup starts today...Hooray! But still most matches are in the evening or late night...What am I supposed to do during the day? Crap la this feeling...
Ooh but my old buddy, Jali Babi is comin later...Nabei like finally you're returning my cool clothes...And my goddamn monkey! Lucky I'm not Ah Long San...If not I think the interest can accumulate till $2000...Yeah but he's gonna start serving the Army tomorrow...Bwahahaha! Hello boy...people 10 more months ORD already la...You still just want to get into Survivor Tekong...Wahahaha! Don't cry, ah!
Yeah having said that...I really miss my buddies...It's been a long time we hang out...Looking back at how much fun we had...It would definitely be something sorely missed as we grow up and apart...Though I "DAH LAIN" already...You, people still mean alot to me...Hahaha okay let's stop this gay moment...So emo...Ok bye!
Tuesday, June 6, 2006
09:45 a.m.
Well I got this from a random bulletin post in friendster...Just to share with everybody...especially that beautiful someone...d=)
From a guys point of view:
We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some
random guy walks into the room and you jump up
and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah,
it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for
ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact
that we're still there.
We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the
morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing is
that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till the
morning.
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Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/
gorgeous/ cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
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Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Take Advantage of the mood im in.
LET US PAY FOR YOU!
DON'T "FEEL BAD"
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say "thank you."
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Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking,
we'll be more impressed.
_________________________________________
You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you
don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest
skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you
own.
We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you
are.
honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when
she's just in her pj's. or my tshirt and boxers, not
all dolled up.
_________________________________________
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
Don't talk about how hott Morris Chesnutt, Brad
Pitt, or Jesse McCartny is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care.
You have girlfriends for that.
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Girls, I cannot stress this enough:
IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A
GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE. DITCH
HIS SORRY, DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-
POPULATION ASS, AND FIND SOMEONE WHO
WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT.
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at
your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even when you
make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad
you make them feel.
Someone who will stop what theyre doing just to
look you in the
eyes....and say "i love you" ...
....AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT!
Saturday, June 3, 2006
08:45 a.m.
It feels like I'm asking for the world when I could only afford so much...Who am I trying to kid? I'm not good enough a reason to change...You're jus too full of yourself sometimes, Maad...Sometimes things just aren't as simple as that...It's time to get off that pedestal and get your feet back on the ground...That's where you really belong...
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
11:31 a.m.
Well...Okay so while waiting for the next Bleach episode to be downloaded...Here I am once again to update you guys on the happenings goin on...Hmmm well life is alrite...My knee is gettin alrite...The blood clot slowly disappearing...Tomorrow I will be removing the stitches...I can bend my knees pretty close to 90 degrees...So everything looks on course for a speedy recovery...
But things have been pretty boring...Well when you can do nothing much but just roll around in bed...watch tv and listening to your mp3 player..things get so stale that you can feel your brain jus dryin up because of its lack of use...Thank God for Bleach though...Bleach has been keepin me sane in this punishing gruelling period of boredom...
Well Bleach is a Japanese anime...okay that's as far as I'm gonna tell you...I wouldnt wanna be going into all these Death God, Hollows, Soul Slayer stuff cos you all will never understand...So go watch it...Its as fun as sex...Well as if I've had sex before...But yeah...go watch it! Recommended...
On top of that...there's a special someone in my life rite now...And yeah she's been keeping me sane as well...In fact feels like she's always been around to keep me alive...Thanks, Ms. Lang! d;)
Saturday, May 27, 2006
08:47 a.m.
Well when your leg feels as if its a separate entity from the body...It is hard to sleep...My eyes were dry and my head was spinning but no, I just cant get to sleep cos my leg was feeling restless and uncomfortable...Sumhow Im prone to restlessness now...You know the sort like you need to keep adjusting yourself to get a comfortable position...Yeah but at least I get much bttr sleep now...
The swelling has yet to heal...The blood clots look disgusting...And yeah because of the regular blood flow...My lower back kinda hurts now...And my leg gets the feeling of ant bites...But everything looks well...I mean its understandable to have these niggly discomforts but yeah I guess my knee is healing up pretty fast...Thanks to my MUTATED HEALING FACTOR hahaha
Well anyway...Joop told me that it's PUMPFEST today at Bugis...I kinda feel like going...But I doubt my momma would let me...I just hope dat Joop's going...Yeah then he could lift me in his ride...But Joop's also sick...So I doubt that he is goin too...He said his temperature was 40degrees...Hmmm chao keng rite!? knn...Hahaha yeah but if I could go then it would be great cos Lynna would be in the National Library...So yeah prolly we could meet...Yeah d=) ooh well enough blogging today...Maybe tmr or something I could share with you what I've been doin to kill time...And yeah its not masturbation ok!
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
08:06 p.m.
Hi I'm bored...And the swelling is a real bitch...There's no more pain on the wound...I guess it's healing...But yeah why the fuck am I telling you all these...
In fact all I ever wanted to tell you all is that life sucks now! I can't walk rite...I can't sleep well...I can't even take a dump without being bothered with immobility...Somehow I'm running out of things to do...Yeah that's how bad life is...Ooh well life's a bitch and so am I, the world's owed me so fuck you!
Saturday, May 13, 2006
09:05 p.m.
I'm drifting away...Lost in the rise and fall of the tides...Going along where the waves take me...You know if you think too much...You're gonna end up worrying...If you feel too much...You're gonna get hurt...I guess the best thing to do is take life as it comes...Don't do anything about it...Just see where the road leads you...
I'm taking the back seat now...I used to be the driver...But I guess I'm tired of driving now...It feels weird back here...But I'm adapting...Prolly she was rite...I am thinking too much...So I stopped thinking...And I stopped worrying...I stopped feeling...And the pain is gone...Just throw everything at me...I'm ready to take on the world for that matter...But I'm still exhausted...The parasite still lingers...I need an antidote...A cure...An elixir to rid of this feeling...
If only feelings can be shed like clothes...Perhaps things would have been much easier...Fuck! Do you realise something!? Even as I speak now...I'm still fucking thinking...If only all you can feel is numb...If only sensitivity doesn't exists...If only...If only...What a bullshit world I'm living...Hope...Blind faith...I'm ready to leave it all behind...
Saturday, February 11, 2006
08:36 p.m.
Ok...So I know I've not been updating...And all my entries are emo screamo...But I definitely have to say that life is looking up...Everything is getting cooler...I'm starting to enjoy myself once again...Looks like the bumpy rides are over...
Life in camp has been great...When the start felt like it was such a drag coming to camp...I'm having a hell of a gd time there...Had new buddies in there...GKC, Kim Dong Il, Snowykelf, S. Gautama, Skinhead, Mat Tetek, Ah Pau and Buddha. Waking up is still a bitch...But hey at least I got something to look forward to at work...Yeah like Punk'd-ing 'em all...muahahaha! Braderhood sikit...
And ooh by the way...Can't wait...nxt Thurs would be the Franz Ferdinand show...Time to dance, shake and twirl...Wooo! It's gonna be totally kick-ass dude...
Anyway I'm in smangat mode now...So as you can see my blog is undergoing some overhaul...Having a new background which is painstakingly done in MS Paint...Yeah and it's incomplete still...Got some more stuff to re-do...like font color and a few adjustments to the positions...Yeah so I hope it'd be nice when it's finally completed...
Got a couple of things coming up too but I shall not be too specific...And somehow I got a bad feeling about this...So I guess...I should just close my eyes and settle, settle.
Sunday, January 15, 2006
11:45 a.m.
Life sucks when you got things to worry about...And all the cliches advices you get from friends...Don't worry everything will be alright...ok so nobody said that to me...But I always tell my friends that...But seems like I can't do what I preach...Somehow yeah you still live the same way and all...when you go out you still have fun and stuff...But the feeling is just not the same...
There will always be that lingering feeling...that when the day ends and you're alone...You gonna start having that sinking feeling...And it's really not a good feeling...It's like a parasite sapping out all of your energy...It makes you feel as though anything and everything that you do is not right...
But a part of me...is like battling this dark side...It's saying to me...How many times have you been into a rut...And how many times you've come out of it tops...the answer is ALWAYS...even though I did never get everything my way...I am blessed with the ability to adapt...But still there's is always that bit of you that will still worry...Because nothing is certain...How can you be certain that this time will be just like last time...You never know...So I guess...We all worry because the future is uncertain...And uncertainty makes us worry...Thus uncertainty certainly SUCKS! ok bye
Monday, January 9, 2006
11:07 p.m.
Ok its inferiority complex...I think my blog sucks...the layout sucks...the content sucks...and ultimately I guess the person sucks the most...So sorry if you, minority readers (which I feel if I'ma supposed to put up a counter in here, it will add up to 15 for the whole year) are disappointed that I've not been updating since eons ago...
And personally I would like to apologise for not replying to all the tags in here...because sumhow I just can't seem to fucking do it...everytime I posted a reply...the tagboard just doesn't generate it out...I dunno why...dun ask me...maybe it's my PC...maybe it's my tagboard...or maybe it's just me...I just suck...so I'm very fucking sorry...And if you wanna noe what's my new year resolution for 2006...fuck you and mind your own business...and that's definitely guaraDAMNtee is my final answer...
Monday, December 12, 2005
11:17 p.m.
Take a second to ponder about this...Since young, we have aspirations...To be a doctor, a lawyer, a policeman, a soldier, a teacher...And whatever our creative mind could think of...Or probably...those were the only professions that we know of at such a tender age...
But as we grow older and those aspirations were actually a mere childhood fantasy, our perspectives changed...So do our objectives in life...And I believe most of us would want to have a comfortable life...A family, stable job, big house, a car, money...And I believe (correct me if I'm wrong) most of us would do anything (legally, of course) to have those things in life...We would work...blood, sweat and tears just to have a comfortable life...And in comfortable, I think it is just appropriate (correct me if I'm wrong again) to associate comfort with money...Because comfort thought something abstract...it can always be measured with money
The more money you have the more comfortable your life will be...Thus, we would give our all...Working overtime...Enduring long hours...Going the extra mile just so that we can end up with more money...I applaud your self-sacrifice, your hard work and commendable attitude...But the way I see it...you are all selling yourself into slavery...Slaves of everything that stands for dollars and cents...
Our obsession for money is so great that we totally forgot...We forgot how to enjoy ourselves...As of now I'm doing office hours in the army...and its starting to leave a very stale taste in my mouth...Everything becomes mundane...monotonous...even machine-like...You wake up early in the morning (more than half the time, you have to drag yourself out of bed), go to work, knock of when it's over, go home or go out, sleep....and the vicious cycle continues...
I'm jus getting sick and tired of that...And it's amazing how many corporate people can stick through it for years...Reluctantly for the majority in my opinion...because they rather work themselves silly because they wouldn't want to jeopardise their well-paying jobs...Even worst, some jobs even eat up into your own leisure time...You don't work for a living...You work to make a living...Which means you work because you want to be richer, financially sound...the more the better...
Yes capitalism is fair...The harder you work, the more you get...It's a free for all and if you don't get into the rat race you will lose out...But because of this...I guess people forgot to stop and smell the roses...That life is more than just dollars and cents...Yes you will enjoy more with more money..Anybody could do with more money even myself...But because of this greed...that we become narrow-minded...That life is always better if we have lots of money...
It's like being a horse in a vast green and open field...instead of just prancing around the field in wonder and amazement...we are galloping as fast as we can to see where it ends...That's the example of the life most of us live right now...We are just so driven to earn that we forgot to make sometime for ourselves to enjoy life...
If you ask me...yes I want to live comfortably...but I do want to stop, smell the flowers and enjoy the scenery...Why do I still have to drag myself out of bed when I'm feeling like shit to go to work...Why can't I have the option..."I'm feeling like shit today, I don't think it's going to be fruitful day at work. So why not I take a time out, recharge and start afresh the following day." Yes there will be setbacks because people may get lazy and complacent with their jobs...But rather than go to work and delivering half-fuck efforts...I rather chill out and relax before continuing where I've left off...I'm sure it will produce a better result that way...
Tuesday, December 6, 2005
11:02 p.m.
Okay I'm back again...well I can't help but to write something about this hell of a guy...As much as it was a waste not to have grown up with The Ramones in the mid '70s...I felt the same for not being able to watch first-hand the magic that's weaved on the pitch back then in the '60s...
And the magician is none other than George Best...His name may not be the household brand in classic football...unlike the likes of Pele, Eusebio, Cruyff and Maradona...But the fire that he ignited in British football was there for all to see...He was quick, two-footed with an amazing sense of balance (you can see his trade-mark, right arms raised straight up as he dribbles down the byline.) His trickeries were God-sent...his shimmies, body feints and particularly his nutmegs were as exciting as they are exquisite...His visions was superb and his passes were pinpoint...and he is never one to shirk away from defensive duties unlike wingers nowadays...In short, he was Cruyff, Daglish and Ronaldinho rolled into one...
But what amazed me the most was his spirit...it was tough being the man who reintroduced the verb "to dribble" in footballing dictionary...Being the light-weight twinkle toed guy...he was always being hacked down by defenders twice his size...But he never did complain...instead he would pick himself up and say "Give me the ball"...
And he was also full of confidence...not to be read as arrogance but rather as a strong sense of self-belief disguised in seemingly humorous and harmless remarks...But disguises is always deceiving...Before a World Cup qualifier match against the Dutch...He was asked if Johann Cruyff is a better player than he is...He replied "You're kidding, aren't you? Tell you what I'll do tonight... I'll nutmeg Cruyff first chance I get" Both the reporter and himself laughed at the thought...
But far from just passing of a cheeky remark...during the match itself...he dribbled the ball inwards of the field, beating at least 3 defenders to the opposite side of the pitch...where the great Dutch footballer was...He brought the ball to his opponent, dropped a shoulder twice and slipped it in between Cryuff's legs...As he ran round to collect it and run on he raised his right fist into the air...
Only a few of the reporters in the press box knew what this bravado act really meant. Johan Cruyff the best in the world? Are you kidding? Only an idiot would have thought that on this evening...Such was his brilliance...you can feel the air of confidence that he possesses...along with the great footballing gift he was bestowed with...it was pure magic...Never mind that he was on a downward spiral soon after the Great European victory of 1968...anyone who had seen him in action will say that he is definitely a rare breed...of raw talent and ability...I could continue on and on singing heaps of praise to one of the best footballer ever to graze planet Earth...But as Pele's favorite player...I don't think I need to say more...
Sunday, November 27, 2005
11:22 p.m.
It was so close yet so far...that is the expression I can use for today...We were within grasp of victory...and that would have made me $200 and a handphone reacher...We lost albeit controversially...My cousin was adamant that we were miscounted...He was confident that one member of our group was left out in the count
And amidst this controversy...the judges stuck to their decision as they proclaimed the other team to have won...It was another stab in the chest for us...for we have not lost in a clear stance...but rather we lost due to the fact that we took a longer time than the other team...
If you blog-heads couldnt understand what the hell this babbling is all about...lemme fill u in...I participated in an event that promised 10 grand as well as a handphone each for the winning team...To win...we had to squeeze all of our team members into the 9-seater MPV (Singapore's 1st 9-seater MPV btw)within 8 mins...
We had 60 members in total...and to cut the story short...both us and the winning team had 50 members in it...however since we took more time to squeeze everybody in...the other team were proclaimed as the winner...It was really shattering to lose like that...I mean we had the same no. of people in...But wait a min...Thats where the controversy is...
The end count for our team was 50...however a few members from my team were protesting that they left out a member from the count (these two guys were wearing black, spot the same hair cut and highlight and look almost identical) and due to human error...the judge missed one of them in the count...So if we had it our way actually...we would have been the winners instead...
But we would never know and the result still stood...the same...it was really utter disappointment...but like my friend said...it had been fun...an experience that will be well-remembered in times to come...we may have lost but the spirit was great...the camaraderie was tight even though we barely know one another...We know that we could have done even better given another chance...but that dont matter now...a bittersweet memory I will keep
Monday, November 21, 2005
12:34 a.m.
Yesterday the Team went to Jalan Raya outing...It's great to be back with the people...after last year's absence (I was on internship last year.) There's so many of us that we could manage to fill up half a bus...29 of us altogether...it's also a multiracial outing with...3 Chinese, 25 Malays and 1 Bangla...wahahaha okok sorry Salman just kidding there...
The only difference is...we are goin private and not relying on public transport...We had our own rides...which is cool cos we get to cut the traveling time...Really a fun outing...It's always fun with TPSC...yeah we own the word Wholesome...and this year me and my partner in crimes from JUSTIS LICK...struck big time...We became like MTV with shows like I Bet You Will, Punk'd and Whatever Things...
We cabled-tied Sufi's capal, tried to be jack-asses and do stupid dares which none of us got the balls to do it in the end...And yes I was conned of my 2 bucks...cos I was made to eat a daun kari...but Taufiq cheated me and didn't give my reward after I finished the daun kari...knn! cheat my money
Me and Batmang(Cumshot) got in 2 videos posing as terrorists...I dunno if you all wuld find it funny...I mean most people have very poor sense of humor...But to me watching the video time and time again...still cracks me up every single time...
We made asses outta ourselves but that is what I find cool...We aren't afraid to be jackasses...be the laughing stock of everybody...Not self-conscious about anything but just being fun fun fun...even at our own expense...Seriously how many people could wear a motor cycle helmet with Baju Raya and act like terrorists right in public...We did!
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
11:51 p.m.
Do you?
- Wear eyeliner
- Have a black wardrobe (as in most all of your clothes are black)
- Go out with Doc Marten boots (laces of any color)
- Go hang under your void-deck in a side-zip (studs and spikes included)
- Listen to cool bands like My Chemical Romance or The Used
- Likes to slash your wrist, pop pills, contemplate suicide
- Feels that the whole world is against you
- Think you are punk and/or emo
- Pretend to be above 18 when you are only like 13-16 years old
Fuck off lah all of you, underaged trendy wankers! Go play with your polly-pockets and lego sets.
I hate trendy wankers!
"Oh I'm into punk/emo" Yeah just because you wear sidezips, have mohawk for a hairdo, use eyeliner, always contemplate suicide, you're punk/emo. You're just a fucking poser!
You don't even have a clue what punk/emo is all about...
Tuesday, November 8, 2005
09:48 p.m.
Yesterday was gone, today is the present, tomorrow the future...I miss skool...The days you can just spend hours in the library checking out babes, dudettes and hawt chicas...Spotting tabung amals and longkangs...Not forgetting having a kick ass circle of friends...We were there as though we owned the skool...Come to think again...I think we did...we were the coolest and everybody wanna noe us...But that was yesterday...those days were the best days of our lives...it's all about we, us and everybody
Fast forward to now...I'm in camp, sausage fest is the name of the game...Chickies are few...morale is very low...dun really hang out that much now and life is just so lifeless for a lack of better word...By this time many whom we crossed path with would have a new life...whether you fit in that life of theirs...only they hold the answer...the question is...Are we or are we not?
Fast forward to future...Come Jun 2007...its back to CV life...But will I live the way it used to be...It's a whole new ball game...It's time to look at life for real...No more taking the backseat...it's the time that you can't get away with "The dog ate my work" or "aliens abducted me last night"...This is the real deal now...the real shit...either you're in or you're out...Nobody's there to provide that safety net to break your fall...you're on your own pal...you cover your own ass now...It's the world of Me, Myself and I...
Sunday, November 6, 2005
11:51 p.m.
How do I tell her...how can I deny...that maybe after all these times that I thought I've let go...that the past just came back to relive itself once again...long have I thought...I've packed whatever that is left...this feeling that I have...this feeling that was left to mend on its own...this feeling that I thought I have left behind...but no...not everything was in the dumps...Above it all...there is still this feeling...A tingling feeling of shining light...that is hope...
And hope is definitely a good feeling...I realised that nothing beats hope...it just makes the seemingly impossible possible...Dee if you're reading this...I guess I still haven't move on after all these times...Nobody comes close as her...not yet anyway...
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
10:04 a.m.
For the dudes...never ever get constipation...always eat your fruits and veggies and drink lotsa water...The procedure for constipation is every guy's nightmare...lest of course you're a fucking gay...
I'm having constipation for the last 5 days...and in the end had to go to the hospital...and you know what the lady doc did to me...she asked me to lie on my left-side...and pull down my pants...she said she had to check my back-side...Shit...and then she stuck her finger rite up the place where the sun dun shine...and God I really wonder how faggots love it...to get their ass stuffed...its freaking painful...and uncomfortable...I mean even my fingers dun venture in there...and now my chastity has been broken...tongue-in cheek literally...
Then...if that wasn't good enough...I had to get my ass pumped with liquid...yeah so again I haf sumthing up my ass...yeah
So lesson learnt...guys you bttr start eating healthy...or your fate could suck like mine...
Saturday, October 15, 2005
02:20 p.m.
If a man can tell if he's been successful in his life by having great friends, then I have been very successful" - Johnny Ramone.
A quote from one of my idol which is so true for me...
Saturday, October 8, 2005
06:35 p.m.
Weekends...had another long one...cos I was on MC since Thursday...my knees (yes, both of 'em) are in great pain...My left knee I dunno what da hell is wrong with it...but it feels as though sumtin is stabbin it...its freakin painful...but as im typing now...I feel dat it's abit bttr...yeah...
This misfortune made me think...when can I play soccer like normal again...without the fear of injuring this pair of delicate knees...sumtimes I grow envious of watching other kids...jumping, running around as though their knees are invincible...Why can't I just be like them...whenever I wanna do sumtin crazy there will always be sumtin holding me back...I wish I could move freely without any worries...
Reminiscing the times back in secondary school days when I can dribble round and round the opponents...turning quickly and sharply to evade their desperate lunges...But now I move twice as slow...I can't dribble much...because I'm that damn slow...I'm losing it...Isit time to heed my momma's words and hang my boots for good...Only God knows...but if you're asking me...I will only retire at 35...or maybe 38...or if I still can...at 40
Wednesday, October 5, 2005
12:26 a.m.
In the Name of Allah, Most Beneficent, Most Merciful.
O you who believe! The fasting is prescribed for you as it was prescribed for those who lived before you, so that you become pious.
Al-Baqarah, verse: 183
Sunday, October 2, 2005
09:59 p.m.
Well...I got nothing much to do so I think I should update this blog...because I can see cobwebs around and the dust collection is 1cm thick...okok I was being lame...
Anyway the weekends was great...I had a long one because I had half-day on Thurs and was on leave on Friday...Went to the Military Medicine Institute to have my specialist appointment and yes guess what...The worst is almost confirmed...From the various checks that the specialist did...he said that it seems that there's a problem with my ligaments...most likely it's torn...not yet confirmed but 90% possiblity...now I'm just waiting for my next appointment to have my MRI scan...to confirm my knee condition...It's like a whole different game altogether now...I gotta change my gameplan for NS now...
And to make things worst...yesterday was Family Day for my Pop's dept. and we had a game of soccer...And yeah again I twisted my knee...daaaaaamn! It's freaking painful...and I don't know but now it seems that the other knee too...which I've already injured 2 years back was affected...It's got this stinging pain right where they drilled the screw in to secure my ligaments...
I'm like walking with a limp now...and my supporting leg is also weak in its present condition...so you can imagine how hampered my mobility is...but still that didn't put out the spirit that I had because we were going to Sentosa later that night...to go on a ghost-busting trip...man it was just like old times...only this time there's only 5 of us...However...things got dull there...instead of being scared outta our wits with the uneasy feeling of presence of the unknown...we were more worried of the bats, rats, roaches, spiders and ants...Nothing even scary happened...That just sucks!
We didn't sleep the whole night...we sat around telling jokes and making lotsa bloopers...okay I admit I was the one making the most bloopers...but it's such a great feeling you know...just hanging around with your chums, talking cock and making funny comments...especially about Jali's gf...and sometimes I feel blessed to have these sets of friends...because we have good clean fun and it's cool...none of that sex, booze and drugs kinda shit...
The four of them were playing soccer after that...till the break of dawn...and we had a dip in the sea after that...That sumed it all for our Sentosa trip...cos we head back home after that...And back home, I slept all the way till it's 7p.m...A weekend well spent I should say...Well this entry is pretty long...but if there's one person who will be happy to read all of these trash...Terul is definitely the man...I mean wo-man...khekhkehe ciao!
Monday, September 26, 2005
11:16 p.m.
I swore I dreamt of her last nite...When she came, it was already late into the night...But still it was a pleasant surprise...She was in blue...And the smile on her face electrified my slumber self...She even hanged out with my mom...That was the coolest thing to ever happen...They were chatting up as though they have known one another for a long time...
The sight was sheer euphoria...Watching them laughing and having a good time...there was this feeling that I can't explain...I mean I do know the feeling...but I just can't find the right words...It's simply indescribable...Then we were supposed to head out for dinner...or maybe it was late supper...but like all dreams be it good or bad...they have to come to an end...
Is this dream...giving a hint that there is a glimmer of hope...Or maybe it's just another dream that doesn't have a meaning...Maybe it's deja vu...or maybe it's just another game we play in sleep...Only time will tell...And all I can do is smile that at least it happened...even though it wasn't reality...
Saturday, September 17, 2005
02:09 p.m.
Please welcome your new COMBAT MEDIC in town...yes the posting system is really screwed up...They know I've had history with my left knee...and now a new injury on the right knee...But still they choose to ignore...Just like how they chose to ignore my situation before I enlisted...giving me a Pes B status instead of a Pes C just like my friends who had medical history too...
And now still they choose to make my knee suffer even more by putting me into a fucking COMBAT vocation...what the fuck is wrong with the SAF...Firstly because they chose to ignore...I twisted my knee twice during training in BMT...and if that is not enough...they simply got to put me as a COMBAT personnel...Why? I don't fucking know...
So fuck SAF, fuck NS, fuck all of them...
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
11:43 p.m.
Have you ever felt so strongly...about something...about somebody in particular that even if things are not going your way...you just wished that it would...You keep telling yourself that...things could have been...maybe things will take a turn in the table...and when everything seems lost...You actually, in a turn of fortunes...things brighten up for you...
You keep having that belief...you keep hoping for it...But you know that it is impossible...Still impossible is never a 100%...somehow with that meniscule of chance...you hope and wish that things will go right for you in the end...
Is it possible that things will go my way...or am I just stupid to learn this hard fact...that she is actually not the one...A question with no absolute answer...still I'm having one foot outta that door and the other one stuck firmly inside...I guess I am stupid...but this is just another hard fact of life...that is being me...well what can I say...it's not easy to be me...
Saturday, September 10, 2005
04:01 p.m.
Man...2 mths passed by already...and army life still sucks! 1yr 10mths to go and counting...Damn it's like still so far away before I can exclaim "Freeeeedooooooom!" (Imagine me saying that like Mel Gibson in "Braveheart")other than that...seriously I got lots of things to blog but just plain lazy to think...So there you go...my short entry for this week...ok bye
Sunday, September 4, 2005
01:03 a.m.
Disappointment is when everybody has high hopes on you but you just let them down...Disappointment is when you could have been one of the best but due to unfortunate circumstances you're not...Disappointment is when you know you've tried your very best but it's just not enough...
DISAPPOINTMENT, that is what I'm feeling as my Basic Military Life is drawing to a close...Imagine having your superiors saying that they have had high hopes for you, and that they had that feeling from the beginning...only for you to fail them...Imagine them saying that you could have been the platoon best...but as I'm not able to participate in activities with my platoon mates...I can only be the best sai gang warrior...And all this because of my stupid knee...It really sucks!
But looking on the positive side...At least from these comments, at least I know that I've done my very best...despite my physical limitations...And that is already something to be proud of...Still, if only I hadn't injure my right knee...Everything would have been a different game...Seriously this feeling is like a monkey on your back...It bothers you and you just can't get rid of it...But still life goes on I guess...So wish me luck as I continue through my NS life...
Sunday, September 4, 2005
01:03 a.m.
Disappointment is when everybody has high hopes on you but you just let them down...Disappointment is when you could have been one of the best but due to unfortunate circumstances you're not...Disappointment is when you know you've tried your very best but it's just not enough...
DISAPPOINTMENT, that is what I'm feeling as my Basic Military Life is drawing to a close...Imagine having your superiors saying that they have had high hopes for you, and that they had that feeling from the beginning...only for you to fail them...Imagine them saying that you could have been the platoon best...but as I'm not able to participate in activities with my platoon mates...I can only be the best sai gang warrior...And all this because of my stupid knee...It really sucks!
But looking on the positive side...At least from these comments, at least I know that I've done my very best...despite my physical limitations...And that is already something to be proud of...Still, if only I hadn't injure my right knee...Everything would have been a different game...Seriously this feeling is like a monkey on your back...It bothers you and you just can't get rid of it...But still life goes on I guess...So wish me luck as I continue through my NS life...
Saturday, August 20, 2005
10:27 a.m.
Two more weeks to P.O.P but damn I just feel really lazy now...I really hope that I need not go for SIT test because I'm that lazy...furthermore I have an ingrown toenail, foot rot, sandfly rashes, a suspected torn ligament in the right knee...so with all these I don't think I'm in the right phsyique to go...and this thought about going O.O.T seems to be another choice I have now since I've already passed 2 outta 3 criterias for BMT...which means even if I don't pass out...I don't have to go for a BMT recourse as I'm considered as having attended BMT...damn if only I can get this lazy feeling of my back...Wish me luck guys
Tuesday, August 9, 2005
06:05 p.m.
5 more weeks to P.O.P so far everything is on course...but there is the danger that I might not fulfill my field camp criteria...so that means I have to pass my IPPT...if not I have to recourse for BMT again...and if that happens then seriously my luck really sucks! Wish me luck guys...i got lotsa things to blog...but there is just too much to say...that I rather not say...but the past 2 weeks or so...is nothing short of memorable and great experiences...I have realised how much more my friends mean to me than what I thought..it makes me treasure them more than ever before...Let's hope the fun never ends...
Saturday, July 23, 2005
11:56 a.m.
2 weeks already and I'm getting sick of the Army...like how my cousin put it...there's is no pride in the Army...only ball suckers will make it far...I try my best in everything I do...really but I just find NS a drag...a waste of time...I was expecting myself to be in a Pes C batch...but no...turned out that the people from CMPB chose to upgrade me to a Pes B...which means I'm fit...
Hell yeah I'm fit alright...but my knees are weak...really weak...yesterday when I was supposed to jump over an obstacle of barbed wire with relative ease...my right knee gave way...and it goes "Praak..." as it twisted when I was about to jump...thank God I had some air in my jump so I managed to avoid the barbed wire...only my left leg was trailing so it got caught...But nothing serious really...Just the agony of pain I felt on my right knee...and now I'm unsure if I'm ermmm fighting fit as they put it cos I lost a bit of my mobility...and the fact that if I don't recover fast enough...I might get Out Of Course...which means I have to go for a recourse after I recovered...which ultimately means that the 2 weeks I've spent in there was a total waste of time...so it's either I stick through it and endure the next 7 weeks or I have to restart this whole BMT shit again after I fully recover...which would take a whole long time...
And another thing is...the accident kept playing again and again in my head...the twist...the sound...and the pain...even as I'm typing about this incident...thinking about it always gives me the shudders...and I guess I'm getting a real phobia doing it again...but if I don't do the obstacles...then I might as well fail the whole thing...Shit I really don't know what to do...I think the only thing to do is to sit and wait...hoping that I recover fast and everything goes back to normal...ok bye
Thursday, July 7, 2005
11:31 a.m.
Today was back at 6...not 6pm but 6am...was just hanging out with Terul and Noor the whole night...Yeah we just lazed around by the water...and caught up talked about the past...talked about our present...and also about our future...Just like old times, huh? I guess as we are growing up...We just have lesser and lesser with each other...But it was definitely nice to hang out together finally...
Anyway look at the time...it's only like 11.30am...I just had like 5 fucking hours of sleep or so...And I just couldn't continue sleeping...Maybe I'm just trying to use the little remainder of my time left to the fullest I guess...This is all happening so fast...I remember the times when I was 10 and young and carefree...Always staying over Skodeng's place..and playing games...soccer...and whatever things that was fun at that time...We lived as though we had no tomorrow...We lived for the moment...with not a care in the world...except for getting into punishments when you don't complete your homework
Then came secondary school...the times when you start to learn what life is all about...your crushes...your heartbreaks...Your responsibilities...but it was still fun fun fun...Even if we failed exams we couldn't really care less actually...ermmmm apart from the dread of the long hours of nagging and lecture from your parents...It was also the times that you have lots of friends and buddies and stuff like that...We went out for Hari Raya visitings like there's 20+ of us...we tore the hood down that's for sure...Even a seemingly empty bus turned full when we aboard it..
Then came life after 16...when you are quite versed about life...You can start making mature decisions...This time exams really mean alot...You just can't fail...you just got to succeed...Gotta make momma and pops proud...You are still having fun...but things are definitely not like it used to be...Somehow you just have the feeling that those carefree and childlike innocence days are gone...You can't make a cute face and get away with things anymore...And friends that you've made previously...one by one they start to leave...
And now after living close to a fifth of a century...suddenly life is seriously staring at you...The nation comes knocking at your door...You finally realise...Hey fuck I'm seriously getting old...and now you are looking towards your future...Gone were the days when you live for the moment...Instead you start making decisions and plans for yourself so that you have a good life in the time to come...What the hell...You never come across these kinda things when you were young...and you finally came to realise after living in self-denials for some time that you are getting old...Things are just achanging and there is no way that you can turn back time but just have to carry on forward...And now whatever things that you do...whatever things that you say...and every decisions that you make...Everything has its consequences...And seriously you start wishing that you are 10 once again...
And now a day before I go serve the nation I just want to give a shout-out to everybody...the people whom I've cross-pathed with...be it for a while...or for a few years...or what seemed to me as a long time...Some things happened for a reason that we could never explain...But I'm glad that I really have some of you...To grow up together...to hang around with...To share fond memories...And simply for just existing in my life...I may not show you people my deepest gratitude...I'm not good with these kinda situations...I get awkward...But this entry is for you..para amistad y vida...Salute!
Tuesday, July 5, 2005
12:27 a.m.
Thursday...I am looking forward to Thursday...I don't really have a master plan...or a plan for that matter...Just feel that I should go with the flow...This is make or break...I'm really excited...I just hope I can pull it off...But it's not up to me...All I can do is try...Not expecting many good luck wishes in here...Cos as usual who the hell would read my journal anyway......But for those who do many thanks to you...
This last few days of civilian life are heavily packed...lots of catching up to do...and definitely looking forward to it...Definitely missed you people already...Dee it's not gonna be strike 3 for us...We will meet ok on Wednesday...and Terul we must die die meet ah if not "aku merajuk 10 tahun dgn kau" hopefully we can get some of them NASS people to come along...And Thursday is D-Day...It's either I pull it off or I choke...Hopefully I don't...Then Friday is another step to adulthood...I'm going into the Army...
So I won't be able to blog frequently then...Not that I've been religiously blogging anyway...But yeah just for the information of those asses who never really have given any shit about me...and suddenly you feel like talking to me again...but you noticed that I'm not around and starts wondering where the fuck am I...then yeah that's it...I'm in the fucking Army...So what the fuck do you want anyway?
I hope that this entry is long enough...because Terul complained that it's not...Anyway...since I still think this is not long enough I shall continue on and talk about my friend Terul...She is the closest girl that I have as a friend...We still keep in touch...At least about once a week...I hope that we still do till we are fifty...But funny thing is...We very rarely meet up...in fact it's been months since we hanged out...Yeah I miss you okay...Only you never miss me one...Always go out with Arina and Graceful...But never go out with me...Rabak gileer...
Anyway I still remembered that we used to call her Hippo...Whahahaa...And that I played a nasty prank on her about this Talib guy...Whahahahahahahhahaha...And I punk'd her about me being a secret society member in the past and that I lost my Big V already...Waahahahahahhahahahaa...But hey it was all good, clean fun...Now that we are older...I just hope that our friendship last...Some people said that they cared...But in actual fact they don't give shit about me...And I just hope that you don't turn out to be that way too...You rule ah, Terul!
Anyway, please God, please let me pull it off on Thursday...Please give me the courage and the strength to do it...Don't let me choke...And please let the answer be favorable...Please
Thursday, June 30, 2005
09:14 p.m.
I strive to do good...be there and protect my friends...but like Lex Luthor who wanted the truth from Clark Kent...I also expect honesty from my friends...I think I deserve it at the very least...So Clark Kent kept his identity a secret because...his father did not trust Lex...And when Lex finally learned the truth about Clark...he went on to become his greatest nemesis...It dissolved all the things that they've once shared...and most importantly it dissolved his friendship with Clark...The one person he considered a friend...the one person he swore to protect...All this because Clark was not being honest with him...
I tried so hard...not to...I tried so much...I mean it's a friend..a dear friend...I should not be calculative...I should not be petty...But it has just gone on far too long...So I must keep our friendship discreet because the other half of her...don't really trust me...fine but now what I found unforgivable is the fact that...she made a promise...a promise that is hard to keep...cos she doesn't know how to tell her partner...maybe she would beg to differ to this...but watever it is...I'm sorry but this is just inevitable...
Monday, June 27, 2005
02:58 a.m.
From now on..I think that I should probably stop being nice..cos being nice really doesn't have good returns..karma is definitely bullshit.
Anyway so the countdown begins..2 more weeks and I'm all with the shaved head, green uniform and black boots..I am really looking forward to this new phase in my life..after listening to stories from my pal, Black and Yan Duta..I am rearing to go..I think life right now is beginning to suck..Maybe that is another reason why I'm being enthusiastic with all this "serve the nation" shit..Yeah and don't think I will miss you people in there..cos I probably won't..well maybe jus a few..
Lemme end with a quote "Women is the biggest weakness of men..they make you think with your ass and forget the very people who was there with you all along..You are willing to give up everything for her..but what would you do for your friends in return? A real man never forgets the people who made him and never will he allow himself to be owned and ruled by a woman" <- no I don't have any prejudice against women nor am I turning gay..
Thursday, June 23, 2005
03:03 a.m.
Well...somehow nowadays, I'm getting lazier to entertain people...I mean...not entertain as in you know being the usual lame ass me...entertain as in to layan ppl...I mean most times I just do "Patrick" at them...they thought I was kidding around...but most times I just mean it...Seriously malas nak layan...And as time goes by the further and further I feel that I've strayed from the people whom I was close with previously...
Nv caught up with Joop or Noor or Black anymore when they were so close to me that I regarded them like brothers...Ngee Ann peeps lagi worst...No news from them at all since a long time...The only person that I talk to on regular term is Terul...And the only person that I've been hanging out with most times is Cumshot...Geez I guess my circle of friends is shrinking and shrinking...
Maybe everybody is busy with their lives now...Gonna be busy with my own soon..Or maybe I'm just not needed yeah...Cos I make a bad friend...I don't know...Cos I will steal their gfs away...I don't know...Or I got bad breath and pungent BO...I don't know...But who cares...I think life is good now...with or without the friends I've had...Cos like I said before friends come and go...I've learnt not to be affected by it...I mean I still feel that friends are like family...But I guess that feeling is never mutual...It's sad but I figured out if there's somebody you can really count on when you're down and out...it's yourself
Friday, June 17, 2005
01:15 a.m.
Blackout - Muse
Don't kid yourself,
And don't fool yourself,
This love's too good to last
And I'm too old to dream
Don't grow up too fast,
And don't embrace the past,
This life's too good to last
And I'm too young to care
Don't kid yourself,
And don't fool yourself,
This life's could be the last
And we're too young to see
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
02:11 a.m.
Sometimes I feel...that people is changing...But many that is only partly true...Maybe I've changed too...For good or for worst...Sometimes it's easy living your life...You know waking up and and getting by everyday and then at night you go back to sleep...But most times I'm left wondering...Is this what you call happiness...
What is happiness...Am I really happy...contented? Frankly I don't really know what is happy...and what is content...Isit sharing tonnes of laughter with your mates...Scoring good grades...Getting good grades...Dont get me wrong...its not that I'm not a happy person...I live my life having fun...Fun = Happy...Maybe contradictory...I am happy...but still I feel my heart...longing...yearning for something I don't even know what is...And this feeling is what making me feel uncontented...unhappy...
And it makes me a shitty person...unconforming...self-centred...nuisance...I realise this...but I just can't help it...this feeling is giving negativity in my life...Not saying that I'm all that positive...I know I could be a better person...but until I figure out what this thing is...I guess you guys gotta put up with me for a while more...ok bye
Saturday, June 11, 2005
11:46 p.m.
Well after a week of soul searching...I've finally realised this...Friends Are Still Like Family...we may be drifting apart...but they are still a huge part of me that I cant erase nor forget...Okay thanks for listening
Wednesday, June 1, 2005
04:27 a.m.
okies its almost 4.30am...Still not asleep...cos I dun feel like sleeping...maybe bedtime will start at 8.00am for me...anyway I just want to say that...friends come and go...and I guess it will be the same for me...I used to be so scared of the day when one by one...my friends go out of the door...but I feel that I don't anymore...
I used to make many friends...many many of them...and now I feel that most of them...don't mean that much to me...As much as it is easy to walk out on me...it's as much easier as me walking out on them...I don't know why I'm saying this...but what I do know is that...I'm ready to leave it all behind...
Thursday, May 26, 2005
02:12 a.m.
Wooo...how long since I've updated...but who cares...anyway jus got back from my loooong holiday...hmmm lemme see how many days altogether...from the 6th to 23rd of May...about 17-18 days...yeah that long man...don't think I want to talk much about the trip cos there were so many things that happened during the trip and seriously I really can't remember most of them...darn should have brought a diary with me...
But what I wanna post is actually a conversation with one of my chums...Cumshot...whooaa talking to him made me wake up my freaking idea...I mean at barely 20 and he already has his cards laid for him for the future...to say the least he got his future figured out...he has everything all planned and that got me to think...so when will I start doing the same...and I thought I got things figured out as well for me when in reality I noe no shit about what lies ahead...
I think I bttr start getting ready cos time doesn't seem to slow down anymore...you know the kinda feeling that you get...waking up and suddenly u already graduated from skool...going into NS...and u tell urself...whooa dis shit is fucking too fast for me...and before I know it...NS will be over and it's a whole new journey for me...bttr start packing for the ride...and if I'm lucky I will be able to see the mother...the mother-fucker so wish me luck guys!
Tuesday, May 3, 2005
02:04 a.m.
I'm joining the G.S.F (Girls Shmirls Foundation) that's it...I lost almost all faith in girls...I just don't know what they fucking want...So they want a good guy...Well am I not decent enough...Aww come on, I'm way decent than half the men they've dated...Okies so I lack the height...the good looks...so what were you saying again about girls are not shallow, superficial creatures...So what else money...I don't grow my own money tree...nor do I have inheritance...so fuck you rich bastards...who never have to work for a single cent
Okies so they looking for personality...I see so maybe they don't like the lame ass joker that I am...People judge me when they don't even know me...I'm more than that guy who just know how to be lame and makes a fool of himself...But who cares right? Who cares about that...People don't even read my entries even though I update my blog every single fucking day...Let alone they wanna care to even know me well...Yeah I know I sound like a loser...But thanks for reading anyway...Which I believe no one is...
Monday, May 2, 2005
03:49 a.m.
The Strokes- Someday
In many ways they'll miss the good old days
Someday, someday
Yeah it hurts to say but I want you to stay
Sometimes, sometimes
When we was young oh man did we have fun
Always, always
Promises they break before they're made
Sometimes, sometimes
Oh, my ex says i'm lacking in depth
I will do my best
You say you wanna stay by my side
Darling your head's not right
I see alone we stand together we fall apart
Yeah, I think I'll be alright
I'm working so I won't have to try so hard
Tables they turn sometimes
Oh someday
I ain't wasting no more time
Trying, trying.
And now my fears, they come to me in threes
So I, sometimes
They fade my friend, you say the strangest things
I find, sometimes
Sunday, May 1, 2005
03:47 p.m.
Okies so yesterday was a blast...Almost didn't get to go into Stardom cos they said the place was sold out...What the hell? You telling me we went all the way to Singapore Polytechnic for nuts? But in the end they let us in cos there were still seats left...
Stardom is like this talentime thingie that features lotsa categories like dance, group, solo, and band. We were there to see I Remember May...my friend's band...And eventually the were deserved winners la...Like rockstars la they all...ahahaa and when they were announced as the winners...We went riot...It was like Riot on Broadwayla until the "securities" pushed us and told us to leave...ahahaha but it was a blast definitely
Then after that had dinner at Burger King and caught the late nite show, Infection...Mind-fucking la that movie and all of us who watched it got so many theories about the movie cos seriously it was mind-fucking...the kind you kinda understand but yet you still have no clue about what it's all about...See I told you it's mind-fucking...
Well yeah that is all that happened to me yesterday...Oh btw only 5 more days left till Krabi...I can't wait and so can't you...ok bye!
Saturday, April 30, 2005
01:52 p.m.
Hey...Nobody's reading this...But I don't give a shit...I think I'm beginning to lose faith in everybody...There's just too much hypocrisy in this world that I don't know whom I can depend on...Nobody whom I can trust...Nobody whom I can fucking relate to...Ok so maybe not everybody...But most...
Just feel that most people in my life...are only in for the ride...I don't think I mean as much to them as they do for me...I don't know why all these disrespect I get...Ah fuck it...I've have a list of people in my book of those who really mean anything to me...And to those who don't...Thanks for treating me like a piece of shit! ok bye
Friday, April 29, 2005
03:23 a.m.
Well...I was watching The O.C just now...and everytime I watch it I will get all emo and always felt that something missing in my heart...But who gives a shit to this anyway...I suck at making conversations...I'm always tongue-tied...I don't make first moves...and when I do...I stutter and make a complete fool outta myself...
Oh my friend mentioned I'm like that Cohen guy...who is always not smooth and likes to choke alot when trying to hit on Summer...and she said there's girls out there who find that cute...What the fuck? Where the hell can I find such a girl...Who digs a dork? Not in Singapore anyway...but if seriously there is...stop hiding and let me find youlah...I'm getting pretty tired in singlehood already....khakhkahka ok bye
Thursday, April 28, 2005
02:20 p.m.
Okies just now morning went to watch bola at Changi with Yan, Bukit and Moose...We were just hoping that Chelsea would lose but in the end...it was a draw...Oh but before that...on our way we were stopped at a road block...blardy coppers...we already late for the match then still waste our time...ooh then when we were parking we saw a couple of bapoks...one of them was hawt la...but too bad "she" is a bapok...
Then after the match we went to OCH...if you all dunno what's OCH its Old Changi Hospital...but we didn't step out from the car la...I wished we did...but nvm there's always a next time...Then summore Bukit say at Botanic Gardens also got these abandoned houses...should go check it out some time soon...
Well that is all I got to update...ok bye
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
02:01 p.m.
Well I don't know who really read my blog entries...but I'll just post anyway cos I got nothing much to do...Anyway I was in JB yesterday with my cousin, Skodeng...his gf and the rest of his scenesters frens...Nice people they are really...Went to Angsana, ate Pizza Hut and McD...and other snacks in between...went chick-hunting...bwahahaha!
One of them, Inn was the hawt stuff...all the girls always smile at him...then Zul also got to talk with the "Perabot Girl"...they were smoothla...And yes, yesterday I broke my bo cock barrier...I went into the Levi's Store and tried to hook up with the girl in there...But she was stuck up lah...waaah then I blow like hell already...First time and not a gd start at all...I'm not smooth...I just don't know what to say...I got tongue-tied and she also like the "Malas nak layan si budak hingus ni" kind...so I guess I really suck at the hooking up game...But at least it was a milestone for me...I mean I got nothing to lose anyway...its in JB so yeah...But if the Minah Malaysia also cannot get then no hope already in Singapore...boohoohoo
Okok too much rambling don't think anybody will read anyway...so end it here...ok bye
Monday, April 25, 2005
05:01 p.m.
Alright...it's been a very long time since I last updated my blog...Sorry my bad...Just that I'm darn lazy to change the color font and people has been complaining that it's unreadable which I certainly agree...So thought that if people can't read it then might as well not update...
But now since I got nothing to do I did ammendments and stuff so maybe you all can feedback and see if it's readable now...To me it is...Anyways...nothing much happening really...
Just bum around...getting a beer gut...doing absolutely nothing...But I did went to play soccer despite my "CACAT" conditions...and scored two beautiful goals...Great first touch and precise finishing...Something that has been sorely lacking in my game the last time I played...
Oh and yesterday I pass going Climbasia to go help out my cousin at his gig...It was pretty alrite...Wanted to stage-dive and body surf...But was fearing for my "CACAT" leg...so yeah didn't...What a waste...But it was still a blast...Other than that...Nothing much to say lah...Hey but I got these two quotes, one is from a Hindi movie and the other is from a movie which I can't remember the title..
The Hindi movie quote was from a copper who quit his job and become a barber, "I may not be able to change the fate of men but I can change their hairstyles."
The other quote is "Dot the "I" in love." I don't really know what it means...but still it's a cool quote I thought I should share with you all...Gabba Gabba Hey!